“Can’t you see my walls are crumbling?”
I’ve been a big Counting Crows fan for most of my life. Especially their early stuff. I was so into them I bought a bootleg Himalayan’s CD off of E-bay in the early 2000’s (once I had my own credit card) and had a ton of live concerts downloaded from Napster. Which, by the way, is the only place I’ve been able to download the ‘August and Everything After’ song – it’s the most wonderfully satisfying Counting Crows song out there and it’s difficult to find.
Counting Crows always had a song for how I was feeling. As a Cancer, I feel a lot of things. Their lyrics cut to my core and gave me words to understand the most difficult times of teenage angst, and later, young adult angst, and now, everyday adult life. If I was sad, they comforted me in my sadness, without feeling better or worse. Sometimes you just need to be heard, without being consoled or given advice and that’s what the Counting Crows have done for me. It’s not often a bands music helps you understand yourself, and I probably would have gotten there on my own, but it was nice to have a soundtrack.
Also, I’d “like to meet a boy who looks like Elvis.” (Not entirely serious.)
I could have picked any number of their songs, but I picked ‘Round Here’. If you know me, you know I have trouble sleeping. I’m not a deep or restful sleeper and I have a hard time actually falling asleep and go through insomnia cycles. I also have incredibly crazy, vivid dreams. I’ve tried drugs, homeopathic drugs, meditation, aromatherapy, counting sheep. In my early 20’s, I decided to try to lullabies. Not kids songs or ‘Tura Lura Lura’ and not actually singing them out loud, or even listening to them, but singing them in my head. It gives me something to focus on, helps stop other thoughts, and becomes a mental pattern that relaxes me and usually helps me fall asleep in a reasonable time. I have two songs I sing to myself, one in Spanish, one in English. I know all the words, and they’re long enough that as I get tired I mix the verses up. They’re also songs I could sing to myself on repeat, since I do them in loop until I fall asleep. I’ve tried to add a new song here or there, but it never really sticks. My two personal lullabies are ‘Antologia’ – Shakira (Spanish lullaby) and ‘Round Here’ – Counting Crows (English lullaby). When I started my lullaby experiment, I went with ‘Round Here’ because in one of their acoustic versions they start the song with ‘Go to sleep little angel. Go to sleep little one.’ This always helped me mentally prep to actually go to sleep and made it seem more like a true lullaby.
“Well everybody’s tired of something.”
PS – The best live version of ‘Round Here’ in Paris in 1994. It’s amazing. Look it up. Also, I was able to find a YouTube version of the ‘August and Everything After’ song. It’s below. It’s even more amazing.